One Phone Call…
That’s all it took to set me off the other day.
So I was having an awesome day the other day, getting lots done and being extremely positive. Then I received a call that I wasn’t expecting nor did I know how to deal with the responses.
This was enough to set my mind into a really negative spiral and it filled me with anger.
As a result of this I unknowingly clenched my jaw for the rest of the day and into the night, my sleep was interrupted and pretty poor as I was tossing and turning all night. This resulted me in waking up this morning with a terrible headache and no motivated to get moving or do anything productive.
I do have days like that where I just don’t want to be around anyone or do anything and you know what that’s ok as far as I am concerned, I wouldn’t be good company for anyone anyways.
I did drag myself to the gym in an attempt to do a workout, I did a few little things but it was a pretty ordinary effort and again that’s ok. Sometimes you just aren’t feeling it. So I ended up just stretching out for a bit and then headed home.
Once home I decided to do bugger all and chill out unwind and have a me day, watching TV and putting my feet up.
Something I like reading is when people say you have to get up and move and be positive and get out of your own head. Well I do agree with that but I also know that it is important to just switch off and not think about anything. People will claim to have all the answers for you and tell you exactly what to do but what I find is a lot of the time these people are full of it. They either don’t know what they are talking about, they have never been through these things themselves, they are only reciting what they learnt out of a textbook but one of the key things is they have never been there and done it for themselves.
I do know something though; I need to work on getting out of my head and not allowing things to get the better of me, a phone call should not have set me off but unfortunately it did. I am working on myself and ways to better myself and to be fair I have come along way. The old me would have been a lot more angrier and potentially punched a wall, or even had a few drinks to try and calm myself down, so the fact that I did none of those is a step forward. Something I find helpful for me is the fact I talk openly about my issues. This really does help me because in a way I feel it not only helps to get it all off my chest but at the same time I feel it could be helping people going through similar things.
Something that has also been helping me a lot recently is I have started practicing Yoga a lot more. Now I get that this isn’t for everyone but for me its has been pretty helpful and the fact I am no longer pushing the weights as much as I would like to this has been good for me I feel. I have been getting in at least 3 to 4 sessions a week. I could be doing a lot more for myself and I feel like I am just taking it one step at a time and finding what works for me. Other ideas that have been mentioned to me are to journal and I suppose in a way I am doing that with these posts and the blog.
So today I have taken a step back and recognised the fact that I need a me day and I am doing exactly that, this afternoon has consisted of me doing sweet bugger all, chilling in my uggs watching Stan as I write some stuff out, and you know what, it has been such a chilled arvo.
I hope you can all take a lesson away from this and realise that you aren’t the only ones going through stuff like this and remember if you just want to chill then that’s ok too.
You do You and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.